Just another day in Paradise? OR Lack of direction just another name for being lazy.

Well, almost four weeks since my last post. (I feel like I am at the Confessional) Some could say that I have been lax and perhaps I have been however, at the moment I am feeling so ill all I want to do is slink away and hide.

It has been five days since I checked and/or read any emails, blogs or even turned on my notebook. Thank goodness I am not a popular person, or I would have had 500 emails, rather than 50. Most of them I just deleted without even looking at them and of the others there were only a handful that held any real meaning for me. In the past hour, most of what I have been doing is trying to get on to my Bigpond email address. It's playing games again only this time it must be the storm that is the cause. I am still able to use the internet so the connection is okay.

I need some direction in my life. I feel that it is so easy to find excuses not to do stuff. I know I am not well enough to get back in the classroom and I must admit, I don't really know if I have it in me to ever stand in front of a classroom full of kids again. So direction is what I need.

Perhaps I need to go and see a career guidance person, are they trained to deal with shit like mine? I wonder. Perhaps it's time to find out.